Wednesday, August 31, 2011

An Open Letter To Love

Dear LOVE,
Since it’s an open and a letter than I'll be starting with usual salutations saying that I' fine here expect same for you. I remembered this much of what my teachers taught me but thing is that still I remembered.
See there is no use of flaunting about my memory skill as am not going to give any lectures to improve yours, if could than also would prefer to learn myself. So where was I, don't say the lame answers about my being at home or PG,yes remembered (see told you na I am best with memory) was in fact writing it out to tell something about love, now it’s not about you but the four syllable word that is found in dictionary, which is in air these days again not literally. Now it might be annoying you that why there is so much detail about each thing and the reason is that people say that it’s better to say it upfront else it might create problems and being a coward always has the tendency to avoid, ouch again details won't give now.

So I was talking about that it’s in the air and blah blah... It’s not that I haven't heard anything about this before but am I feeling it for the first time? I think so... naahhh... It has happened before yupp as usual how it has happened with every single boy out there. It’s his granny. You know mine always saved me from the wrath of my mother and then used to give me a full bowl of cream and cream, now here I should tell you that with time this lady's love grew more and more, and you could figure the reason behind my O-figure, but other than this was there someone else. Yes there was some good stint.
Like a true man I didn't accepted the love coming to me as easily so I betrayed her and went on for search another.
Other than my granny my second was my Teacher. In fact my first. Now a boy who was never been touched or cared by a lady was due t fell for the trap and it happened. Started thinking about this lady as my Cinderella. So now we could term it as a true form of pure love. And to feel her I kept getting slaps from her because that was the only way her touch could be bestowed upon me. I kept getting punishment as I thought it was my destiny. But there was something else in store for me by destiny. I found my competitor. It was my best friend. The whole world changed. The earth beneath fell apart. It was like we had sworn always to be good friend and will never see on the other's girl but now this scam. It was time for one of us to bid goodbye to his first. So... we both had a fight and we didn't come to any conclusion. But what happened next might make you think that I am making all this but really it happened like that, we(My love and me not that idiot keep him out) had to separate from each other, again screwed by destiny, like it used to happened in those oldies. It was destiny again Summer Vacation. It has never happened before that in any of my long vacation I have waited anxiously for the school to reopen. And the day came but again there was a twist and could tell you that any Bollywood director could have made movie out of this and that flick go on to make them celebrate golden jubilee.

This time it was that she came to school in full red in fact blood red sari , even today when I think about that day I could.... won't go there wounds go green. She was next Marlin Monroe of my dream. Wait!! Did I say red; she got married!!!
So the stint of my first love ended just like that but I didn't get disheartened and to prove her that I could have been better choice cleared my fourth standard with 72%. But she didn't have impress and that day I learnt that girls are damn demanding. And my friend and I, both with heavy hearted if next time in these situations we are going to discuss it before whose maal she is.
So it was my first technically you see.
Time passed and my body was getting developed but I was too afraid to find out there were growing hairs all over my body and was afraid that I might turn into a bear if the rate kept on going like that. And with time my knowledge and interest about these four syllable. I kept watching movies in which heroes by hook or crook used to get their dream girl. Time passed and I kept my kept getting theory classes and to be frank missed on all the girls in the town. Time flied and my theories classes got more and more. My teachers were RAJ from yashrajfilms and Prem from Rajshree films. Even got the some best poets coming through the course books enlighten my thoughts. And the best one was
पोथी पढ़ पढ़ जग मुआ पढ़े पंडित होए
ढाई आखर प्रेम का पढ़े सो पंडित होए
So you see it was these poets who told me directly that I have to fall into love to become a pundit, see I am one by cast but to become one originally had to follow them, so it was final that I am going to be in love. And at the rate my friends were falling I was hopeful but there was one thing that I was sure that was sure not to happen and that was availability of money. So time and destiny were against and left no choice other than wait. But to be frank if I had loved books rather than waiting could have been at different place altogether but then you wouldn't have been there.
Time passed rather it flew more swiftly than expected. I was keeping patience but lost it the day I saw you. Don't know was it true or was just my frustration. So I called up my mom and describe everything what I felt about you adding that mom you know even I think these days have grown shorter and nights being on the longer side and she slapped (I don't know how even I wasn't on 3G connection but I felt as if it was tight slap) and said it was nothing but the usual thing to happen in the winters and there is nothing to do with my feelings. So it occurs when you have so many theory classes from those idiot persons- what was there name Raj and Prem. Again time flied and I thought if I remain silent you will understand it. But don't why this word destiny wants to play its role now and then in my business. Doesn’t it have anything else to do? Being as a techie I decided to express my feelings on blog. And would like to say it upfront that it has nothing to do with the goose bumps or those odd noise that keep buzzing whenever you are near. You see am not afraid of you or not of even being slapped as you know I’ll take those as for me it'll be your feelings for me.
There has been this girl that who told me that whatever you do but always be true and am doing the same. It might look lame but can't do better than this. Had once heard that man doesn't cry or he never feels the pain but would just like to clarify that it’s just the opposite. I think it’s the man who needs the most of the moral support than his female counterpart. And tell you are not different.
See I am not as rich as Raj or as smart as Prem. So before I start just close your eyes and imagine yourself in a blood red sari you know it’s just that my first still has its place or mere fantasy and put yourself in the picturesque mountain range with a sunrise/sunset as per your wish in the place called Vancouver. Can you imagine that!! Please, do it just for me. You can do that at least as you understand it’s hard to take you there with me on this meager income so just imagine. Now have a sarson da khet, it was necessary as you see my teachers mostly used that in their mode of teaching about the love and even it looks prettier. Me standing in between the khet with a black TUX with my arms widespread and body a bit tilted in 60 degrees and you running towards me and and(something is missing)....
Wait wait!!!!
I didn't said it, see I told you that I have a really good memory, so say it now loud and clear
I LOVE YOU!!!
Did u hear that now don't say u didn't, it was loud and clear even my PG mates have woke up.
Now you might be wondering why only you? I grew up hearing these lines
चाँद सी महबूबा हो मेरी कब मेने ऐसा सोचा था
हाँ तुम बिलकुल वैसी हो जैसा मैंने सोचा था ।।
And one thing is sure that I couldn't have find better than you.
So coming back to the picturesque scene you were running towards me and stopped just at arm’s length from me and you say...

DHAT!!!  just waked up by the barking of dog.
WAIT, Wait!!!
I was saying my heart out in that picturesque scenery in my dream man f... what has happened!! You see that is hurting me more I won't get more guts than these so would like to ask you that if you can message me your reply and wait don't use telepathy rather use telephone.
Just say it please want to hear it out from deep into your heart and your feelings.
Hope to hear from you soon.
Yours True
Lover


(PS: This time I am damn serious that too for the 1st time in my life. Waiting for your reply)

2 comments:

  1. Gud work of popular writing skills,but too dramatic,is it really represents the deep feeling of love,m not sure.may be in your heart but not in text.why we are trying to hear the loud voice of shattered dreams,there is nothing but a deep silence like eliot said-THIS IS THE WAY THE WORLD ENDS NOT WITH THE BANG BUT A WHIMPER.

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  2. Kya dard hai bhai.........padte padte akho me asoo aagaye......hope d girl of ur dreamzzz understand u and be with u.... forever after......

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