An Open Letter To Love

Dear LOVE,

Since it’s an open and a letter than I'll be starting with usual salutations saying that I' fine here expect same for you. I remembered this much of what my teachers taught me but thing is that still I remembered.

See there is no use of flaunting about my memory skill as am not going to give any lectures to improve yours, if could than also would prefer to learn myself. So where was I, don't say the lame answers about my being at home or PG,yes remembered (see told you na I am best with memory) was in fact writing it out to tell something about love, now it’s not about you but the four syllable word that is found in dictionary, which is in air these days again not literally. Now it might be annoying you that why there is so much detail about each thing and the reason is that people say that it’s better to say it upfront else it might create problems and being a coward always has the tendency to avoid, ouch again details won't give now.

So I was talking about that it’s in the air and blah blah... It’s not that I haven't heard anything about this before but am I feeling it for the first time? I think so... naahhh... It has happened before yupp as usual how it has happened with every single boy out there. It’s his granny. You know mine always saved me from the wrath of my mother and then used to give me a full bowl of cream and cream, now here I should tell you that with time this lady's love grew more and more, and you could figure the reason behind my O-figure, but other than this was there someone else. Yes there was some good stint.

Like a true man I didn't accepted the love coming to me as easily so I betrayed her and went on for search another.

Other than my granny my second was my Teacher. In fact my first. Now a boy who was never been touched or cared by a lady was due t fell for the trap and it happened. Started thinking about this lady as my Cinderella. So now we could term it as a true form of pure love. And to feel her I kept getting slaps from her because that was the only way her touch could be bestowed upon me. I kept getting punishment as I thought it was my destiny. But there was something else in store for me by destiny. I found my competitor. It was my best friend. The whole world changed. The earth beneath fell apart. It was like we had sworn always to be good friend and will never see on the other's girl but now this scam. It was time for one of us to bid goodbye to his first. So... we both had a fight and we didn't come to any conclusion. But what happened next might make you think that I am making all this but really it happened like that, we(My love and me not that idiot keep him out) had to separate from each other, again screwed by destiny, like it used to happened in those oldies. It was destiny again Summer Vacation. It has never happened before that in any of my long vacation I have waited anxiously for the school to reopen. And the day came but again there was a twist and could tell you that any Bollywood director could have made movie out of this and that flick go on to make them celebrate golden jubilee.

This time it was that she came to school in full red in fact blood red sari , even today when I think about that day I could.... won't go there wounds go green. She was next Marlin Monroe of my dream. Wait!! Did I say red; she got married!!!

So the stint of my first love ended just like that but I didn't get disheartened and to prove her that I could have been better choice cleared my fourth standard with 72%. But she didn't have impress and that day I learnt that girls are damn demanding. And my friend and I, both with heavy hearted if next time in these situations we are going to discuss it before whose maal she is.

So it was my first technically you see.

Time passed and my body was getting developed but I was too afraid to find out there were growing hairs all over my body and was afraid that I might turn into a bear if the rate kept on going like that. And with time my knowledge and interest about these four syllable. I kept watching movies in which heroes by hook or crook used to get their dream girl. Time passed and I kept my kept getting theory classes and to be frank missed on all the girls in the town. Time flied and my theories classes got more and more. My teachers were RAJ from yashrajfilms and Prem from Rajshree films. Even got the some best poets coming through the course books enlighten my thoughts. And the best one was

पोथी पढ़ पढ़ जग मुआ पढ़े न पंडित होए ।

ढाई आखर प्रेम का पढ़े सो पंडित होए ॥

So you see it was these poets who told me directly that I have to fall into love to become a pundit, see I am one by cast but to become one originally had to follow them, so it was final that I am going to be in love. And at the rate my friends were falling I was hopeful but there was one thing that I was sure that was sure not to happen and that was availability of money. So time and destiny were against and left no choice other than wait. But to be frank if I had loved books rather than waiting could have been at different place altogether but then you wouldn't have been there.

Time passed rather it flew more swiftly than expected. I was keeping patience but lost it the day I saw you. Don't know was it true or was just my frustration. So I called up my mom and describe everything what I felt about you adding that mom you know even I think these days have grown shorter and nights being on the longer side and she slapped (I don't know how even I wasn't on 3G connection but I felt as if it was tight slap) and said it was nothing but the usual thing to happen in the winters and there is nothing to do with my feelings. So it occurs when you have so many theory classes from those idiot persons- what was there name Raj and Prem. Again time flied and I thought if I remain silent you will understand it. But don't why this word destiny wants to play its role now and then in my business. Doesn’t it have anything else to do? Being as a techie I decided to express my feelings on blog. And would like to say it upfront that it has nothing to do with the goose bumps or those odd noise that keep buzzing whenever you are near. You see am not afraid of you or not of even being slapped as you know I’ll take those as for me it'll be your feelings for me.

There has been this girl that who told me that whatever you do but always be true and am doing the same. It might look lame but can't do better than this. Had once heard that man doesn't cry or he never feels the pain but would just like to clarify that it’s just the opposite. I think it’s the man who needs the most of the moral support than his female counterpart. And tell you are not different.

See I am not as rich as Raj or as smart as Prem. So before I start just close your eyes and imagine yourself in a blood red sari you know it’s just that my first still has its place or mere fantasy and put yourself in the picturesque mountain range with a sunrise/sunset as per your wish in the place called Vancouver. Can you imagine that!! Please, do it just for me. You can do that at least as you understand it’s hard to take you there with me on this meager income so just imagine. Now have a sarson da khet, it was necessary as you see my teachers mostly used that in their mode of teaching about the love and even it looks prettier. Me standing in between the khet with a black TUX with my arms widespread and body a bit tilted in 60 degrees and you running towards me and and(something is missing)....

Wait wait!!!!

I didn't said it, see I told you that I have a really good memory, so say it now loud and clear

I LOVE YOU!!!

Did u hear that now don't say u didn't, it was loud and clear even my PG mates have woke up.

Now you might be wondering why only you? I grew up hearing these lines

चाँद सी महबूबा हो मेरी कब मेने ऐसा सोचा था ।

हाँ तुम बिलकुल वैसी हो जैसा मैंने सोचा था ।।

And one thing is sure that I couldn't have find better than you.

So coming back to the picturesque scene you were running towards me and stopped just at arm’s length from me and you say...

DHAT!!!  just waked up by the barking of dog.

WAIT, Wait!!!

I was saying my heart out in that picturesque scenery in my dream man f... what has happened!! You see that is hurting me more I won't get more guts than these so would like to ask you that if you can message me your reply and wait don't use telepathy rather use telephone.

Just say it please want to hear it out from deep into your heart and your feelings.

Hope to hear from you soon.

Yours True

Lover

(PS: This time I am damn serious that too for the 1st time in my life. Waiting for your reply)

India Against Corruption

So here I am back again with my useless views on ... HANG ON!!

But what should I really talk about as there is so much to comment on as many things have happened and happening these days for an instance Team Blue played to its best in cricket, Overnight the biggest the democracy on this planet realized that CORRUPTION has increased and ... remaining I don't know as MEDIA didn't covered anything or never wanted to show anything else.

But what has removed earth beneath everyone is a 74 year old toothless harmless person who came with a cause to his part of duty towards his nation which his respective democratically leaders have not been able to do but what about the others? Yes I know all came to show their love towards their dream of being on TV. But I didn't get the point where is this so called revolution is heading towards and will this "REVOLUTION" bring an end to Corruption. I really feel pity over the emotions and efforts that these people are putting in this revolution. What will be the end of this, somewhere they also know in one corner of their heart? But then they are with a hope and this nation has soul that believes in hoping for the best whether they work towards it or not but they hope. What I really don't a point is that bringing or defining a law will do? Will it end the corruption in nation? Can by just defining a law will we be able to eradicate? It is just like hoping that inventing a vaccine for a disease will eradicate it, but really to end it we have distribute it and have to bring awareness about it.

But if we think this will work then there is no point in looking back. But will this work is the big QUESTION? I am neither a student nor a person who knows law but what I know that many laws had already been defined in this nation whose soul's mantra is JUGAAD. Everything out here can be achieved by this one mantra. But how many laws are being implemented in this nation to the core. Answer is none. But it's just my opinion and would be happy if I'm proved wrong.

Someone once told me that Charity starts at home. And I think charity and corruption other than having the same starting alphabet also has the same rule that they both start at home. It's just that if we won't be corrupt at home or we could stop this at home we might end up giving the next gen fresh air that doesn't have the pollutant named corruption.

Don't we would love to shell more money to buy a ticket of movie of our favorite star in black or won't we that potbellied thulla to have some chai-pani rather than cutting a penalty ticket. It’s just these small things that end up in starting the cancer. We are solely responsible for sowing the seeds.

Don't we lie to our parents or near ones or don't we cheat the ones who loves us or whom we love. I don't know why people don't understand these small things that end up ruining everything.

Today these TRP-ruled channels will look towards the scoop that will sky rocket their TRP's. Today they are showing Anna and tomorrow they'll forget him. What has taken me aback is that the day when Anna's revolution started same day a RTI activist was shot dead in front of her home and till date there is no clue. Ministers are charged with many criminal charges but no action against them has been taken other than resigning from their designation is that enough. I remembered once when Sanjay Nirupam of congress asked Ravi Shankar Prasad about the George Fernandes about the coffin scam he retorted back with the lame excuse that leave him as right now he's low on health. What was that, absurdity at its best or shamelessness at its peak?

So just by reciting the slogans will not change anything it's we have to change. Two days back a young kid met with an accident on Kolkata’s bridge, he was wrong firstly by not following the rules by not wearing a helmet and secondly went on a rash driving. But solely it was not his fault as after the accident he was lying there soaked in blood for nearly 20 minutes but no one came to help him and at last he succumbed to his injuries. What were they doing waiting for Anna to tell them to help that kid in need. Do we have heart or in race to raise our bank balance we lost it somewhere. He could have been saved if some assistance would have been provided. Humanity is dying and we are afraid of Corruption!! Whom are we fooling around and with?

Won't go into more of preaching as I am not good at it, in fact I am good at nothing but happy that at least not a hypocrite. I could be judged corrupt as lied to others as I feel better to lie rather than hurting their feeling but doing so also I am doing the same that I wouldn't like to do at the first place.

What I could do is that appeal the masses that rather being a Raj of Yashraj films or searching for Prem of Rajshree films better try to be DJ of UTV films in yourself as I believe we all have each one of them in a bit in us. For just once we have to lift ourselves up from the caste and creed and become an INDIAN.

If gulping an old monk brings out a monk out of us than today we pledge to gulp that till everyone turns out to be one.

At last would like to conclude by stating this doha-

"बुरा जो देखन में चला बुरा न मिलयन कोई,

जो मन देखा आपना मुझसे बुरा न कोई "

पल.....

'पल ' ये एक ऐसा शब्द है जिसका मेरे लिए कभी कोई मतलब नही था पर अब समज में आता है की ये शब्द क्या था। 'पल' वो लम्हा है जो गुजर जाने के बाद लौट के नहीं आता, 'पल' वो एहसास है जिसके होने सब कुछ मिल जाता है।
हर किसी की ज़िन्दगी में कुछ ऐसे लम्हे होते है जो उन्हें अंदर तक झंझोर देते है तो कुछ ऐसे होते है जो पूरी ज़िन्दगी काटने के लिए काफी होते है। मुझे ये तो नहीं पता की ये सही है की नहीं पर सब सुना जरुर है,पर गोया कभी ये गुजरा नहीं है। इक बार ऐसे ही किसी सफ़र में कोई मिल गया था वो कुछ हंसकर बोले और हम इससे कुछ और ही समझे। कब ये नासमज दिल समजदार हो गया पता ही न चला बस उनके केशुओं में खोता ही चला गया।

Zindagi na Milegi Doobara...

Zindagi na milegi Dobara...

I am not an idiot who will be writing blog in the late night basically its really late its 1:15 AM to give an review about the movie.

But I dare to take this title from a movie for my blog and Mr.Akhtar I am just borrowing it...

What happened suddenly is that this title has asked me to think over. Life is good as they say Have a job, proud parents, noble friends then what else do you need. I have it all but still that happiness is missing from the life.

There is something that has been haunting me now from last 3 years. Why it always happens to me? This Question that I always put to myself after I lose but never been able to answer or I think it’s just that I don't want to accept that answer.

It has always been my fault and I had always been afraid to accept it. Don't know will ever be able to do so or as usual sit in the corner and say it to myself "It was my damn destiny"...

From now on no more blame on the destiny because it was never, it was me who made wrong choices and fall into this trap.

Whether it may be Ms V or Ms M it was always my fault. How can you go to someone's house to gift her CHOCOLATE and damn how could I, a person with ugly face round belly could even dream of being accepted by her. And that also when she has an boyfriend, who said it matters if he's your pal. Wrong CHOICE!!!!

Years past and that ugly fat round ass thought he's luck might change but yet he forgets that he makes a wrong choice...

This time Ms V was replaced by Ms.M but the story didn't change.

But I always wanted to ask these far more beautiful, intelligent and mature girls that if you people had these qualities then how could you ask your boyfriend to threaten me or how could you end up making fun of me in front of your friends.

Was saying NO is that difficult. I don’t think so.

What was there that you had to prove? What was there in ur mind when you were making a fun of simple innocent idiot lame, whatever I was?

"I don't believe in LOVE MARRIAGE..." you said this when I told you what I felt about you. What know the PAPA's BETI has changed her morals or rewritten the pact that she promised herself to follow always?

I don't know what will happen in the future but If it’s all about loving a person who is wealthier and wise then you then I think you had your moment and again I MADE THE WRONG CHOICE..

Hope the words one day reach to you as I wanted to say it for a long time now but said it now as "Zindagi Na Milegi Doobara".

P.S. I love YOU!!!(NOT YOU LADIES AND THIS TIME I HAS SAID QUITE SIMPLE RATHER THEN JALEBI TYPE'S THAT YOU COMPLAINS)...

Is it a downfall?

These days the most hot topic is corruption but i ensure you that i won't be taking you through that whole shit of talking again.
But what really is bothering me the level of degradation Indian cinema has fallen into. People are out of ideas and in that context are making the remakes of the south or the oldies.
Where some look at these remakes as the comparison, as it was in the case of the DON, where both the so called shenshah and the badshah of the industry came to face to face. But the result was as expected neither the movie make it to the top nor the actor and in fact the later had to came in the public to accept that he's nothing in comparison to the SHENHSHAH.
Similarly, the remakes of the south hits like Ready,Singham,Bhool Bhulaiya,Wanted and many more that i have forgotten and many are going to hit the screens soon. Even HAHK is also a remake of the south film.
I don't know why this is going on like this can't they generate a story of their own to carry forward rather than sticking to the remakes of the oldies or south hits.
But since it is not that all are Anu Malik in this industry their are some who like to compose something of their own and such is the example of the young talent that is coming in the upfront of the silver screen.
Bejoy Nambiar,Abhinay Deo,Luv Ranjan are the directors who have come up with the movies like Shaitan, Delhi Belly, PKP respectively.
So the people have the ideas its just that they need some one to believe them.
After watching delhi Belly even now I can think that one day I'll be sitting in PVR to watch Indian Pie series like its contemporary American.
Lets hope to see some phadu pictures this year yet there has been pnlu three that have left any impact and all the three were fresh scripts in the sense were not copied.

a letter to FRIEND

Dear FRIEND,

I am fine here and expect same about you. This place is really nice. People out here are helping and food is excellent only IDLIS and DOSA my favorite.

Uuf, what a relief a thought makes in your mind when you think about this day when you'll have your 1st pay in hand. It feels like if someone didn't stop me, I think I'll buy this world out. No more asking for pocket money. No more strike for a raise.

Just a minute that means No more bunks. No canteen. No eve-teasing. NOTHING!

Same boring schedule as my FATHER. Shit! I didn't ask for this boring day-2-day routine. Hell! I am aging! Noooo!!!!

Going to miss you there. You were my pal cum my brother. I know how hard it was for you. It would have been really tough for you to tell that an ugly, fat and non-stop talking piece of shit is your friend; no I am not talking about Martin Lawrence. I know things have been tragic with me, even more than what it was with YOUSUF KHAN. You name one and I have been through it. It takes hours to think about it and minutes to happen with me. I was really a pain in your BRILLIANT ASS. And The ALMIGHTY knows that you have to suffer with me a lot.

It was hard to imagine a life without you. As days passed I became more possessive about you. I wanted to be around you and expected the same with you. I told you everything whether you did or did not. I see a girl I told you. I loved one I told you. I cried for her when She left I told you. I tried to kill myself I told you. In short there were no secrets between you and me. I was happy with my part.

It all happened really fast. We met each other and teacher asked you to give me your notes. We exchanged notebooks for homework and then tiffin. You cried every time while eating those mirchi-parnthas of mine and laughed while eating your sandwiches. We used to run the whole ground to have the bite of those John sir samosas and were so desperate that might even kill each other for that (in fact sometime snatched from the mouth of others). Bunked all classes and sat on that tanki or sophia wall. It was fun. You were there to help me out every time. Whether it was the day when the ball was in SOPHIA or the day when the girl from sophia in my heart or the day when cute girl from somewhere came and became my heart-beat every time you were there. I was like KRISHNA and SUDAMA. Brilliant and Duffer. In short we were destined to meet each other even scientifically as the Physicists (Not DOGA), "Different poles attract each other".

But then what happened that changed you suddenly. Why suddenly someone you met yesterday has replaced me. Why it is so that you left me lonely in this world. Now your tragic king doesn't have his problem solver. Ok, I want call you in night to ask you to explain equations. I won’t even call you when I'll be in trouble. I'll cry,cry,cry but won’t make you feel SHY. Please do not leave me alone. Just be there! People knew me because of YOU. No one knew my name. They used to say, “he’s friend of HIM". I had no identity other than that I was your friend. Don’t take my identity from me.

What will happen to me without You? What a tragedy again You will leave me and SHE never looked towards me. She neither looked in my eyes nor felt the warmth of my words. What she did was just left leaving me behind. CRYING! She said I was one hell of an IDIOT but never thought once that she suddenly became someone's life. Why everything has to be said or written? Why can't she understand what I feel for her? I was in Dark. A dead tunnel. And finally I broke. You were busy with someone who was special for you and I didn't bother you.

Suddenly everything changed your priorities, my habits and everything. Life is becoming hell without you. Crying is not helping; Puffing smoke is making me crazy and with every single drop of liquor is tearing apart my soul. I needed you and you were not there. I was addicted to you dependent on you. I knew you'll be there to hold me if I stumbled but you made me looked like a fool when u laughed at me like others did when I fell.

I think it might be because of me as You can't do anything wrong. I lost you because of my mistakes. I'm not smart or capable to be a friend of yours. But I can't help it! All i can do is guarantee you in this world where everything comes with warranty that i will be there and won't leave you alone as your hard earned money did when recession hit the market. Just smile for once when look up to you. Just say aloud u don't feel embarrassed about being my pal. Can’t we again sit together fight over whether India loses it because of SACHIN or DRAVID. Fight over MAN U and ARSENAL. Whether I’ll become smart or not? Sitting again on that tanki and talking about whether that cloud makes a white ELEPHANT or a GOAT.

What else to say. I know you're happy because if wouldn't have been so You would've remembered me. But if this is the sole reason believe me I'm happy too. But if not please forgive me

Yours Once Dearly

FRIEND