Dear FRIEND,
I am fine here and
expect same about you. This place is really nice. People out here are helping
and food is excellent only IDLIS and DOSA my favorite.
Uuf, what a relief
a thought makes in your mind when you think about this day when you'll have
your 1st pay in hand. It feels like if someone didn't stop me, I think I'll buy
this world out. No more asking for pocket money. No more strike for a raise.
Just a minute that
means No more bunks. No canteen. No eve-teasing. NOTHING!
Same boring
schedule as my FATHER. Shit! I didn't ask for this boring day-2-day routine.
Hell! I am aging! Noooo!!!!
Going to miss you
there. You were my pal cum my brother. I know how hard it was for you. It would
have been really tough for you to tell that an ugly, fat and non-stop talking piece
of shit is your friend; no I am not talking about Martin Lawrence. I know
things have been tragic with me, even more than what it was with YOUSUF KHAN.
You name one and I have been through it. It takes hours to think about it and
minutes to happen with me. I was really a pain in your BRILLIANT ASS. And The
ALMIGHTY knows that you have to suffer with me a lot.
It was hard to
imagine a life without you. As days passed I became more possessive about you.
I wanted to be around you and expected the same with you. I told you everything
whether you did or did not. I see a girl I told you. I loved one I told you. I
cried for her when She left I told you. I tried to kill myself I told you. In
short there were no secrets between you and me. I was happy with my part.
It all happened
really fast. We met each other and teacher asked you to give me your notes. We
exchanged notebooks for homework and then tiffin. You cried every time while
eating those mirchi-parnthas of mine and laughed while
eating your sandwiches. We used to run the whole ground to have the bite of those
John sir samosas and were so desperate that might even
kill each other for that (in fact sometime snatched from the mouth of others).
Bunked all classes and sat on that tanki or sophia wall. It was fun. You were
there to help me out every time. Whether it was the day when the ball was in
SOPHIA or the day when the girl from sophia in my heart or the day when cute
girl from somewhere came and became my heart-beat every time you were there. I
was like KRISHNA and SUDAMA. Brilliant and Duffer. In short we were destined to
meet each other even scientifically as the Physicists (Not DOGA),
"Different poles attract each other".
But then what
happened that changed you suddenly. Why suddenly someone you met yesterday has
replaced me. Why it is so that you left me lonely in this world. Now your
tragic king doesn't have his problem solver. Ok, I want call you in night to
ask you to explain equations. I won’t even call you when I'll be in trouble.
I'll cry,cry,cry but won’t make you feel SHY. Please do not leave me alone.
Just be there! People knew me because of YOU. No one knew my name. They used to
say, “he’s friend of HIM". I had no identity other than that I was your
friend. Don’t take my identity from me.
What will happen
to me without You? What a tragedy again You will leave me and SHE never looked
towards me. She neither looked in my eyes nor felt the warmth of my words. What
she did was just left leaving me behind. CRYING! She said I was one hell of an
IDIOT but never thought once that she suddenly became someone's life. Why
everything has to be said or written? Why can't she understand what I feel for her?
I was in Dark. A dead tunnel. And finally I broke. You were busy with someone
who was special for you and I didn't bother you.
Suddenly
everything changed your priorities, my habits and everything. Life is becoming
hell without you. Crying is not helping; Puffing smoke is making me crazy and
with every single drop of liquor is tearing apart my soul. I needed you and you
were not there. I was addicted to you dependent on you. I knew you'll be there
to hold me if I stumbled but you made me looked like a fool when u laughed at
me like others did when I fell.
I think it might
be because of me as You can't do anything wrong. I lost you because of my
mistakes. I'm not smart or capable to be a friend of yours. But I can't help
it! All i can do is guarantee you in this world where everything comes with
warranty that i will be there and won't leave you alone as your hard earned
money did when recession hit the market. Just smile for once when look up to
you. Just say aloud u don't feel embarrassed about being my pal. Can’t we again
sit together fight over whether India loses it because of SACHIN or DRAVID.
Fight over MAN U and ARSENAL. Whether I’ll become smart or not? Sitting again
on that tanki and talking about whether that cloud
makes a white ELEPHANT or a GOAT.
What else to say.
I know you're happy because if wouldn't have been so You would've remembered
me. But if this is the sole reason believe me I'm happy too. But if not please
forgive me
Yours Once Dearly
FRIEND
